Where is your authentic self, in the Seasons of your Soul

This incredible visionary narrative was shared with me by a friend who adapted the piece to suit the way she can work with it in her life. I want to give credit to the original author, Jon Kabat-Zinn, whose fabulous youtube meditations and mindfulness guidances are deep yet tangible ******** Personally, I find many meditations go right over my head and settling down is impossible , but this story draws me into a different awareness and place of peace. He is also an author and you will enjoy his writings if you appreciate the journey below. Hoping you find your spirit rolling around dandelion’ed spring fields, spinning with colourful winds around a relaxed summery mountain, tickling through snow strewn trees after basking in an autumnal glow.

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As the mountain sits, seeing and feeling how night follows day and day follows night …. it feels the bright warming sun, followed by the cool night sky studded with the stars, and the gradual dawning of every new day.

Through it all, the mountain just sits, experiencing change in each moment, constantly changing, yet always just being itself. IN ANY SEASON, it may find itself at times enshrouded in clouds or fog or pelted by freezing rain. It remains still as the seasons flow into one another and as the weather changes moment by moment and day by day in CALMNESS – abiding all change …..

None of this matters to the mountain, which remains at all times its essential self. The mountain’s magnificence and beauty are not changed one bit by whether people see it or not. IT JUST SITS, BEING ITSELF.

At times it is visited by violent storms, buffeted by snow and rain and winds of unthinkable magnitude. Through it all, the mountain sits, unmoved by the weather, by what happens on its surface, by the world of appearances …. remaining its essential self, through the seasons, the changing weather …. the activity ebbing and flowing on its surface

In the same way, as we sit and ponder, we can learn to experience “being as the mountain”. We can embody the same central, unwavering stillness and groundedness in the face of everything that changes in our own lives, over seconds, over hours, over years.

It is true we experience storms of varying intensity and violence in the outer world and in our own minds and bodies, We endure periods of darkness and pain as well as the moments of joy and upliftment … even our appearance changes constantly, experiencing a weather of it’s own ….

In our lives, we experience constantly the changing nature of mind and body of the outer world. We have our own times of light and darkness, activity and inactivity.

By becoming the mountain in stillness, you can link up with it’s strength and stability and adopt them for your own. Use it’s energies to support your energy to encounter each moment with mindfulness and equanimity and clarity. It may help you to see that your thoughts and feelings, your preoccupations, your emotional storms and crises, even the things that happen to you are very much like the weather on the mountain.

We tend to take it all personally, but it’s strongest characteristic is impersonal. In truth things happen FOR us and not TO you.

The weather of your life is not to be ignored or denied, it is to be encountered, honoured, felt, known for what it is, and held in awareness – and in holding it in this way you can come to know a deeper wisdom, silence and stillness.

Thank you to this amazing writer.

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As it is with nature so it is with you, the Seasons of the soul. You need to tune in to your authentic self.

  • When I sit and think of the Mountain after reading the above, I visualise the seasons on that place – spring blossoms and the grass turning green. Green has a smell do you know that?
  • Then I dream of a hot summer bringing over storms of lashing rain and lightening – branches crashing to the ground and splintered, the animals huddled and drenched, hiding in little burrows or hollows in the ground.
  • Following after summer, autumn is hot on its tail – the leaves turn to burnt oranges, bright reds and golden yellows showing a blanket of a different glory. But I feel lashing winds, chasing the leaves from the trees – tumbling across the sky and heaping up around the roots of trees – making nests for the animals to shelter when winter arrives.
  • Stark skeletal trees creep into my imagination, peeping through the snow or contrasting with the crispy blue skies above. Under the blanket of snow lie hibernating creatures in the decomposing discarded foliage preparing to feed the ground, roots and grass that sleeps now. There is a purpose for everything.
  • Each season has it’s bounty and it’s agony, it’s desolation and preparation to feed the generation ahead – just like in our lives.

Now, quieten a while, sit or lie and visualise where you have been in your walk on earth, the journey – and perhaps where you are right now. Let it settle into your soul.

2020/2021 has brought about much thoughtfulness, change, loneliness, sickness, desperation, new inventions, new businesses and also blown away the chaff, making way for the new which we must prepare to embrace.

I wonder, before I leave you, what season you think we are in right now, today, and what the last season was?